Wow...It's the afternoon and I've still not slp. I'm very much amazed at myself. Being thru 3 or issit 4 packs of smokes. I really can't remember. I pretty amazed at tat as well. Man....I'm so stone now....And throat hurts like hell...Think it's all clogged up with smoke and stuff anyways...It's amazing tat I can stay up for more then 12 hours straight. Without blinking an eye lid. I'm really really amazed at myself. Watching the cats roam around down my block as I smoked, watching ppl going to work, watching housewives going to the market, watching children coming out early to play. Watching the rain fall down on me. Feeling the rain on me. It's being a long time since I last had a walk in the rain. Walked over to her place. Dun know why, dun know how. Upon reaching, I just turned back and walk home. Dun know why, dun know how oso. Perhaps I dun wanna be a nuisance to her and trouble her. I know she's sleeping...She's having sweet dreams only...And I dun wanna disturb her on tat. Cause she seldom have good dreams...

can someone knock me out? Or stash me away somewhere? somewhere where no one knows me? Where I can feel nothing at all? Where I can say I truly love ting without hurting her? Or better yet...Somebody...Kill me...

I wanna sleep.....I wanna sleep so badly....I need sleep....I wanna escape...

- +unbelievable+
Scribbled by Amateur Shutterbug @ 12:58 PM