U used my love for u as a tool for revenge against me for wat i did to you, and yet i dun hate or blame you. why is tis so? i dun feel hate for you. i dun feel tat u have hurt me. why am i feeling like tat?

i only blamed myself. the faults are all within me. it's me who did all the wrong doings. i'm the one who is at fault. i still see you everything i close my eyes. how can i just drop it like tat? i can't. i want to be brave and face everything. but i can't. u told me tat i should be loved by someone else. how can you say tat? i can't feel tat way.

letting go was never easy....but letting go of you was something tat has never crossed my mind before. how can i let go of you? i just can't.

i have to wake up? i guess tat i do have to. i know i can't hold your hand anymore. i know i can't hug you anymore. you're not beside me by my side anymore. you're not next to me in my bed anymore. is it all a dream? sometimes i really hope it is. maybe it's more easy tat way.

in the end, i still hope the best for you. i still wish you happiness. i wan you to be happy in watever you do. i dun wanna make you feel hurt anymore. i'll carry on...i know tat i've lost you forever already. i've to carry on. i can't cling on to the past anymore.

i still love you. and i'll carry on loving you. i'll always be behind you always. tats wat i promise you. but it's not because of a promise. it's wat my heart and mind and soul agree upon. i dun feel hurt towards wat u've done. but rite now and from now onwards, i can only see you from a distance and love you from a distance...

good bye ting....

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